Dear Heavenly Father,
Turn your face to me,
and draw me close to you. Continue reading
Growing up in a Pentacostal Church, I’ve heard my fair share of “Fire and Brimstone” messages.
As a little girl, I remember shaking in my ruffled dress, at the thought of being eternally banned to that horrid place called hell- without any water or relief. Church messages usually sent me home to take an inventory of my most recent acts. Mmmm, I did lie to sister about trying on her dress; and the way I talked to mama- that was bad. Continue reading
I couldn’t have been older than 9 years of age, when the thin book caught my attention. The picture on the cover- a bit captivating. The woman looked quite intriguing.
Her cheekbones set high on her face, her lips- determined, and her eyes- well her eyes told me she has seen her fair share. Nonetheless, she stood tall and commanded attention. I knew she was someone who was willing to do what it takes. Continue reading
In my, Speak Life post, I urged everyone to consider the words they were speaking everyday! We discussed how our words had the power to uplift people and to crush their spirits! I also reviewed some practical methods in which we can Speak Life.
One notion we have yet to discuss, is: To Speak Life into others, we must first have life within ourselves!
Matthew 15:18, states, ” But the things that proceed out of the mouth come from the heart.”
As a result of my starting “Seeking You”, I find myself doing more self reflection; attempting to determine if I am living the life I am writing about. I reflect on how I treat my husband, my children, my relatives, my friends, and co-workers. In other words, I’m a bit more mindful about I am and how I behave.
In my Relationships and Jealousy post, I talked about utilizing our words to affirm others. I pondered on that post. In it, I suggested that words were to be chosen intentionally and could be effective if done so.
What is interesting about our time, is that despite advances we have made, we have so many people walking around broken! Broken by past occurrences and current situations; unaware of who they are and what they are able to become; without a clue of who bought them here and with what purpose He did so.
As a result, we search for countless fillers. We occupy our time with mere distractors; afraid that if we silenced the noises, we would be disappointed with what was left. So we continue to toy with anything that promises happiness and fulfillment. What it truly delivers is more to obsess over, more to desire. If we would just take the time to get to seek, learn, know…
Writing my “Not Enough” post was a pivotal moment for me. It was a time when I truly put repressed emotions into the light. It was also a time when I faced the reality of being inadequate. How freeing! It seems contradictory to find freedom in limitations; but for me it was coming to grips with who I really am, so that I may begin learning to operate within the realm of my true existence.
Is it possible to have everything you want and still feel unsatisfied?
I guess that’s the feeling The Rolling Stones experienced when they sang the hit song “(I can’t get no) Satisfaction”.
I have all I have ever wanted- a smart, creative husband who loves me very much; 2 smart, sweet and healthy children who wants nothing more than to be with their family; a career that I love; and a house that fits our style and lifestyle perfectly. I work with people who are caring, smart, funny, and great to be around. I should be loving life, right? While I do- at times… with the husband, the 2 children, the house, and full-time career- there is so much to do! I suffer from anxiety attacks at the thought of the daily tasks that must be completed. Although I want to do it all, the amount of time is not enough!