Writing my “Not Enough” post was a pivotal moment for me. It was a time when I truly put repressed emotions into the light. It was also a time when I faced the reality of being inadequate. How freeing! It seems contradictory to find freedom in limitations; but for me it was coming to grips with who I really am, so that I may begin learning to operate within the realm of my true existence.
I am man. I am not a God. I do not have full control of my destiny. Now if I am limited- can I navigate this world and not lose myself with in it?
Surely I can… But how? Well… in my “Not Enough” post, I admitted that I, alone, will never be enough. Key word: alone. In John 16:33, Jesus tells us to relax…there will be hard times, but He has overcome it all! (In MORT-My Own Rose Translation- not an official translation)
I also admitted to feeling fatigued, frustrated, and fed up. So much to do! I have attempted so many times to get my life together- to no avail. As society screams as the top of her lungs: Be more, Do more, Want more, Seek more, I can’t help but want to go back to the basic.
Then it happened! I heard that still small voice whispering powerful truths… Seek ye first! That’s when I realized that if I am to navigate this world according to the plan God has set for me (Jer 29:11), I must abandon my plan and seek his Kingdom. I must stop trying to do this on my own.
Dear God… Help! Help me to put you first. There is so much to do. I cannot do it all. Too much of my time is spent on taking care of my needs and the needs of my family that I don’t focus on you or your kingdom. The later part of Mathew 6:33, promises that if we seek his kingdom first, He will take care of the rest.
This reminds me of the Mary and Martha story. Martha was taking care of business (preparing the home for an important Guest-Jesus himself!), Mary on the other hand- was at Jesus’ feet. Martha went to Jesus to complain. And what did Jesus say to Martha who felt fed up and frustrated with her seemingly lazy sister… In MORT (remember that’s just my unofficial translation): ‘Girlfriend- you are worried about the wrong thing! Don’t you know who I am? Spend time with me and forget about the rest!’
I Got This! (Read this entire story in Luke 10:38-42).
Here I am, being Martha and neglecting the very part Mary was commended for. I am busy about Life- all noble things, might I add. Working to help provide for my family, taking care of the needs of my family, tending to my home are all necessary in these times. But where are the moments for me to spend time at his feet? For it is in His presence we find the “…fullness of Joy” (Psalm 16:11).
While I recognize there is no one formula for living life the right way, I do believe the bible gives us guidelines. As stated on the Got questions website: Believers who have learned to truly put God first may then rest in this holy dynamic: “…and all these things will be given to you as well.”
For now, I need to focus on:
- Being passionate about prayer
- Spending time at His feet (through meditating on his word)
- Being a student of the word. Learning all I can about the word of God.
- Learning to hear and heed his voice
As we start a new year, there is a feeling of there being one more chance; an opportunity to do things right. What do you feel God is whispering to you? What are some changes you would like to make. Please feel free to share any thoughts in the comment box below. 🙂